I have completed something so monumental, so big, that the sheer absence of this project in my life (as I moved it out of my space where it has been created, held and now finished) must look energetically like a black hole surrounding me. You know, like in Titanic when the ship is sinking and everyone has to row as fast and as far away from the ship as possible before if goes under because the sheer amount of water and energy it displaces due to its massive size creates a vortex of suction; pulling in everything around it.
Ladies and Gentlemen . . . the first completed draft of my book, query letter and book proposal.
Yes, after months of writing, hundreds of pages of work, tens of thousands of words all strung together . . . last night, post midnight – I was done with an entire first draft.
I will not attempt to convey the incredible lightness of my being right now. It’s only a first step – now comes the editing, submitting, more editing, publishing and selling millions and millions of copies (hee hee!) but it’s is a phase of my life and a content of work completed. I have honestly never done something this challenging, involved or time consuming in all my life. You know why more people don’t write books? Because it’s freaking hard!
So I’ve been walking around like a zombie, hardly sleeping and sort of dazed thinking, “Now what . . .” as that boheamth of a project is out of my space and onto the next phase . . .
Oh – and MJ died? What the hell?! And Farrah on the same day? What a crazy day yesterday was . . . can’t believe the King of Pop died. Man.
Well I’m taking a weekend of rest – tomorrow going to a Wounded Warriors BBQ for combat veterans wounded in Iraq or Afghanistan and then Sunday up to Rehoboth Beach in Delaware. Yes – Delaware. “Hi . . . I’m in Delaware.”
Hope you have a beautiful and inspired weekend and I’ll see you back here on Monday. Until then, I liked this little prayer they handed out during my father-in-law’s memorial mass this week. Thought it was a nice way of thinking about our challenging times and trusting in the strength of a more divine power (call it God, the Universe, Source – whatever resonates with you).
“I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will wend. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. . . I will trust you always for though I may seem to be lost, I will not be afraid because I know you will never leave me to face my troubles alone.” –Thomas Merton